| Location | Burton On Trent |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Still Birth |
| Date of Birth | 29/03/2009 |
| Date of Death | 29/03/2009 |
| Visitors | 2,380 since 13/04/2009 |
| Creator |
To our presious little boy,
A tiny child our heart's adored,
A million hope's,A million dreams,
A child so perfect eye's would not believe.
Your tiny hands,your tiny feet,
your hair felt like velvet,
Your face looked so sweet.
To the care of the angel's you now have passed,
In our thoughts you will stay,
From our first to our last,
The love in our hearts will grow n not sway.
In peace you can rest your tiny head,
Forever and always your name will be said,
Farewell our son from your daddy and munny
And too from your loving big brother.
hello beautiful
My gorgeious boy im in a pickle im in a horrible mood and cant get out of it and im now doing my own head in.i found something out i wish i hadnt as i just feel like ive been taken for a mug and the last one to know not only that but lied to and im not sure if im making a big mistake but i guess only time will tell my cards say move on stop living in past and it will be ok but im not convinced you know my barrier has just grown ten foot taller just as it was begining to come down.
i just dont want to say anything as i know it will cause friction and i dont want that but on the other hand its all that goes threw my head and its driving me insain.
Not only that but its coming upto your birthday which drives me mad.i will do my usual and go out for a meal in memory of you obviously ya dad wont be there but your big brother will be and ill ask nanny and grandad too.Im sorry for having a rant but i dont have anyone i can really talk to about this i guess its you made your bed so you lie in it kind of thing but i will be ok i have an idea of what i can do i love you baby miss you soo much xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
happy new year
to my precious little boy i want to wish you a very happy new year i hope ur being looked after well and know that mummy misses you so much.
I had a surprise tex message off grandad last night and i saw the new year in with him and i now have my dad back which has made me so happy.
I am moving in with chris and we are very happy together hes amazing he makes everything all ok and makes me feel good again,hes amazing with ur big brother and he adores him.
Its still like i have a big part missing and i guess ill always feel like that cuz your not here with me but i know there was a reason you had to leave maybe it was to make me wake up and see i needed to move on with my life but id give anything to have you here with me to be able to watch you play,laugh and lern and see ur smile and your beautiful face every day.
Theres not a single day goes buy i dont think about you and i cant believe its coming up to ur third birthday i cant believe ive not see ur beautiful face for 3 years but it only seems like yesterday i can still smell u and see u its still so fresh im getting to the point where i would like to have another baby i know ill never replace you but maybe get a part of you back i know your always with me and you always will be id give anything to be able to bring you back but i know thats not possible but i have to live with that on a daily basis and your only ever a heart beat away and always will be you will never be replaced or forgotten ur my special angel baby who i love so dearly.
sweet dreams beautiful i love you with all my heart xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
happy christmas beautiful
hello sweetheart i hope you are having a great day and santa has bought u lots of presants.
We wish you was here with us today to join in the fun and games theres always that feeling that somethings missing and its you id give anything for you to be here with us so we could give u a big cuddle and kiss.
your big brother says merry christmas and he loves you and hopes your having a nice christmas we miss you so much beautiful love always mummy n your big brother xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
my beautiful boy
Hello my angel i hope you are well i just wanted to call buy and tell you how much i miss you,everywhere i go everything i watch i see babys and all i think is how lucky are you to have your babys id give my limbs to have you back i really would,luckily i have your beautiful big brother to keep me going and now i have my new found strength and happiness in someone very special.
He makes me happy keeps me calm and always makes me smile when i really dont want to,he makes me feel special,happy and safe and ive never really felt the way i do and to be honest its all a little scary but i just got to let my demonds and past live in the past and think farward and positive.
I need to move on for all our sakes and this may be my last chance of real happyness as im not getting any younger and the pluss side your big brother loves him to bits.
I know this probably isnt what you want to here and i hope your not angry at me i hope you can be happy for mummy knowing im safe and happy now.
you are always in my thoughts and will always be in my heart.
Thank you for coming to see your brother with grandad i was shocked that morning when he told me and thank you for the picture.
I hope your having fun miss you forever and always big hugs and kisses from your mummy.xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hey beautiful
well baby boy its coming up to that horrible time of year christmas!!!
im really not looking farward to it this year as its going to be even harder it just being me and smurf!
It really hits home when it comes to christmas as theres always the knowing that theres someone else missing that theres not enough pressis under the tree its like theres always a gap theres always a whole where you should be.
its like when im shopping for codies christmas things i see other things n think i would probably be buying them for you.
Soon after christmas its your birthday the years are flying buy but it still only seems like yesterday n still rips me apart the same as it did the day you left me.
your brother misses you and still asks me to bring you back and i always say if i could i would id do anything to have you here with us.
My kids are my world you may not be here but i always talk about you and your always on my mind and youl always have a huge part of mummy that left with you.
Im in a happyer place now ive got someone that makes me happy makes me laugh and i can be me without hiding how i feel and just being silly old me.
Its like i have a new lease of life and know i made the best desicion i could.
things will change for the better and i hope your not angry at me baby but for once in my life ive been selfish and put my needs and wants first for a change,dont get me wrong obviously ur brother comes first but hes a happy little boy and hes happy as mummys happy.
He tells me uve not been to see him for a while so come and see him and let him know your safe and u love him he does miss u so much.
Ill say goodnight speak to you soon and remember you can come and see mummy i promise i wont freek out love you so much my angel xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
an angel so perfect.
Hello beautiful i hope you are well ive missed talking to you so much and i miss you even more!
I find it so hard to go to your garden at the min as i have been so low i know i just wouldnt want to leave but theres not a day that goes buy that i dont think of you!
I just wish i could hold you and give u a big cuddle and kiss.
I see all these new babys and i envy these people knowing i can never hold you or show you off to the world like these people but im also happy for them.Its people who dont deserve there kids who are crewl nasty spiteful people.
But all i can do is hold your memory close to my heart and know that you had to leave me and it wasnt because im a bad mummy.
Theres been many a times where ive blamed myself and the what ifs but i gotta let them go and maybe in the future if i can have another child apart of you will be in him/her but they will never replace you!!
I have found a happyiness but still got a long hard road to walk down and alot of uphill climbs but one thing i know is youll always be by my side.
I love you with all my heart baby miss you xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
my beautiful angel
My life is not complete without you hear to hold my hand,without you to give a cuddle to and without your smile and laughter.
I have been lost ever since you left me and i just wish i could see you to tell you how much i love you and sorry if you thought i never wanted you.
I will come to your garden tomorrow and bring your flowers,im sorry i dont come up much these days but i just find it so hard to stand there by myself because the emptyness becomes so much more intense and reality that you not with me.
I always think of you every day and send u my love.
even if you could just come to me in my dreams would be a blessing all i seem to do is have nightmares at the min and it drives me mad.
I did my angel cards and it told me to ask for guidence and ask for help and i am doing so threw you.
I believe you are my gardien angel now along with the others but you are the one that helps me and guides me.
Maybe the nightmares are actually reality is this the sighn i asked for if it is well i think you and i both know mummy already knows the answer and theres only one thing to do to move farward and break free and i have the strenght to do that now as the weeks have gone by its proved to be what i need to do.
I know that daddy will always be in my life as he is yours and your big brothers daddy and we will always have a bond threw you both but we can no longer be together anymore that part went along time ago and it wasnt untill i had a wake up call i realised i needed to break free to find me again and find a new path of life!
As the world revolves life goes on and theres lessons to be lernt i think ive learnt my lifes lessons now and i just want to be happy have a real smile on my face not a painted on one!
A big part of me went with you and i hope you hold me close to you as i do u.
I know life is an uphill climb but i dont want to climb anymore ive had enough hurt and pain i just want a nice stready path to follow now.
Codie is always talkin about you and sayin how much he misses you i have now found the strength to smile when he tells me instead of crying but as you know mummy still crys many tears for you and always will.
You are so perfect and so prescious and no matter what youll always be my baby boy who now has his own set of special wings.
Remember to use your wings and please please come and see me i promise i wont be scared ill be so happy just to know you are safe and so i can see your beautiful face one more time.
I love you forever and always
mummy xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
ive missed talking to you.
hello my beautiful how are you?i hope you are well and you are being a good boy.
I missed writing to you so much but i will be able to stay in touch now.
i have your brother a poorly boy at the moment he has a very high temperature so i darnt sleep incase he needs me as u probably know we have had to go to the hospital today but at least they did there job and made sure he was ok.
things are a little bit better nowadays im settled into my new house and im getting on with daddy alot better now which is good as i dont like fighting with him.
I have my friends from work as well as hannah and kerry who are amazing and always listen to me rant lol its good to let off steam every now and again.
I see uncle layton now has his head stone so say hello to him for me and giv him a hug off me as we all miss him very much.
Im goin to book an appointment with dianne soon so could u please come and speank to me and let everyone else know id love to hear from them as i miss them all so much but u are my angel n despratly want a sighn to know you are safe and well.
Id do anything to see your beautiful face again or hold you in my arms.
Im not a bad person and i wish that things was different and you wasnt taken away from me but i understand now that i just have to live with it i have your brother who is my whole world and i adore him n couldnt live without him as he is my strenght he always makes me smile and comforts me when im sad he is a absolute little star.
I look into the sky at night and wounder where you are and what your doing what you like what you look like now but im pretty certain u will be the spitting image of ur brother as u was when you was born it was pretty amazing how identical you both was!
i just want you to know never a day goes by without me thinking of you and wishing you was here with us.
Im goin to say night night cuz need to try and cool ur big brother down and get him to drink something.
i love you with all my heart forever and always your mummy xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Hey beautiful how r u?im ok i guess things are abit pooh as im angry at ur daddy,
Im angry cuz he can do everything now ive left him n be this nice person all of a sudden but wen we together things was never right.
I now know i made the right chioce id rarther be unhappy on my own than in a stale dead relationship i tryd so hard but ill never be good enough for him never have been.
His family never really liked me n his stupid house n job have always come befor me hes happy now n im glad.
I have ur big brother n hes happy and thats all that matters.
I have a special friend who has helped me get things sorted but its only a matter of time befor i get crapped on so ill just dust myself down n start all over again.
I dont think ill ever have a happy ever after but i dont care anymore i giv up trying. With everything n everyone as long as ur big bro is happy in life thats all i care about.
Love u so much my angel one day ill see u again.xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
baby i miss you
My beautiful bot i miss you so much its not fair i have to talk to you on here i want to be able to play silly games in the park and take you to the sea side but all of that has been taken away from me.
I always ask why me?why me beautiful son its not fair i dont do drugs i never drank or have ever done wrong things in my life for me to say well i guess i deserved this.
I had everything ready for you and we was all looking farward to your arrival then my whole world came crashing down around me my heart had been ripped out and the worst thing possible had happened,your tiny heart had stopped beating and for that split second so did mine.
I kept thinking to myself all threw the labour they are rong you will come out and you will scream ur little lungs out but you never,
I held you in my arms praying you would take that breath but we all knew deep down that wasnt going to happen.
I washed you and dressed you as i would of done and just held you so close to me i never wanted to let you go i didnt know what they was going to do with you i was scared that they would hert you so i made things move fast and had you moved from that hospital and so you went to the chappel of rest.
I didnt really know what i was doing for days i just felt lost didnt feel like i was here but no one to turn to i wanted to scream n cry but never did i held everything in and im at the point of no return i need to let it all go i cant hold it in any longer ive gone threw it all but not actuall got rid of my anger and i need to.
People i know have gone threw simalar or the same things but they all say having another baby has helped them maybe it does for them and im happy they are happy.
I dont have anything other than your brother and the spirit of you and very few that i can call a friend.
Ive always been there for people ive always helped where i can but where was everyone for me?
All i had was your brother everyone else treated me different.
if i could id move away and start afresh so no one can hert me or make me feel worthless i have no real family except my aunti n uncle wich hurts me but you know what baby boy ive made it this far on my own.
As you know me and daddy are not together anymore but hopefully we can be friends now ive tryd for a long time but nothing is eve good enough and im tired now i am me and im not changing im a good person and all i want is to be happy i dont want to fight anymore or be unhappy.
I might actually find a happy ever after one day but as i fell of a unlucky star i doubt that very much.
The only things ill never regret in my life are my beautiful boys your both my life and soul and will chrish you both forever.
love you forever and always mummy xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Using the options below you can add this memorial to your personal garden.
| I am Theo Ashton's ... | |
| Add to Garden: | |
| Notifications: | Text Message |
There have been 285 candles lit for Theo Ashton.
